Wanting... Needing To Go Deeper With Jesus

Just came back from Saturday Night "Jesus Revolution". It was a very good services. Tonight the Holy Spirit's theme was going deeper with Jesus. It is what I'm needing. I look at my life recently, and I realized that I have relaxed too much in my walk with Jesus. This is bad because even the Bible talks about running the race with endurance. (1Cor 9:24-27, Heb 12:1) I have not been doing this. My endurance in this race has depleted. I have slowed way down. I feel as if I'm almost walking instead of running.

I have not been reading my Bible lately. I wanted to watch TV  with my son and play games instead of seeking God, even though I had plenty of time to read. I also have not been praying when I should. I have slacked off on this very badly. I need a pray life. I know how important it is to have that personal alone time with Jesus. How can I have a personal relation with Jesus of I don't talk to him? I don't want to be one of those people who just prays to God when i need something. I truly want to know Him.

When I begin to walk instead of run I loose my fire, passion for Jesus. When I loose my fire, passion for Jesus I start to get caught up in the way of the world and into worldly things. When I get caught up into the way of the world and into worldly things I allow and excuse sin in my life. Jesus deserves so much more from me and I want to give Him my best, nothing less.

So, to nights message was dead on for me. I've decided that I will stop slacking off, take up my cross and follow Jesus, counting the cost. (Mark 8:34-37, Luke 13:25-33) I understand that following Jesus means living for Him in public as well as in private. I know it's not going to be easy all the time. I know that I will get tired and want to slow down again. But that part of where the grace of God comes in. I can not walk this walk without the grace of God, and I don't want to do it without His grace. I will rely on Jesus to sustain and replenish me when I need it. Jesus said Himself that He would give us water that will bubble up and become a spring within us, giving us eternal life. (John 4:13-14)

Oh Jesus have your way in me and in my life. Help me to truly count the cost of living for you. Help me to endure until very the end. I pray for more passion, fire, and love for you Lord. More of You, Jesus, less of me. Help me to truly bring glory to your name. Amen.